I'm Sorry

Hello everyone! This may be a shock to some of you that still watch me or maybe not. A lot has happened these past two maybe three years? I'm sorry for randomly disappearing as so much has happened in my life. I was almost trapped in Colombia, I've had to go to therapy and I still need it. I have a lot of family issues that need to be resolved and I guess a lot of my own internal struggles and the way I saw myself got me to lose myself. I questioned who I was daily and wondered if what I was doing was just for the sake of others.
Writing was my passion but at some point my passion felt like it was slipping away from my fingers. I didn't feel creative anymore. I felt like a one shot wonder *pun intended*
I look back at the things I did on this site and man was I so cringey and immature T_T
I'm 19 now and I won't deny that I don't still have some troubles here or there. I don't expect everyone to comment saying they missed me, in fact I expect many of you to be angry or just not respond at all. I get it. I left without saying anything and that was wrong. I made so many friends here and slowly they left too. And I didn't blame them because life gets difficult sometimes. It's fun to imagine being in a relationship with Captain America or Loki but sometimes that could only make you happy for so long.
Jade was one of my closest friends here whom I regret not reaching out to. She was kind and like others, she made me laugh and gave me ideas. Octavia had things going on in her life that didn't allow her to come on here as often but she still messaged me a lot. Ash and I texted a lot too and somehow I just lost communication and it was my fault.
I could have reached out to so many of you who commented and liked everything I wrote but I didn't....
I guess I just felt like I would just be forgotten anyways.
And I deeply regret it because you all deserved an explanation after laughing and crying and being angry at me so much for killing either you off or your favorite character.
I want to come back and write again. I feel like I'm not as good as I used to be but I want to be better than before. I want to be like a Phoenix, and be reborn.
To everyone who sent me points for stories to be written I'm sorry for never doing it, I'll give the points back and hopefully I can make it up to you.
To all my watchers thank you so much for always being there for me and to those of you who have sticked with me or left because I wasn't posting anymore, thanks for everything and I hope you can forgive me.